Sorry, Not Sorry

I've never been big on New Year's Resolutions. I've always said you don't need a "fresh start" to change something in your life. I never saw the point in waiting until Monday to start improving on yourself when you can start right away. But something I want to do is stop apologizing all the damn time. I want to stop being so sorry about things I cannot control.

Instead of apologizing to my friends for being a lot to deal with, I want to start thanking them for their patience with me. 'I'm sorry" has such a negative connotation, and I want to bring as much positivity into my life as I can. Why am I apologizing for my panic attacks if I can't control when I get them? Why do I say sorry when I cry? If I'm so overcome with emotion that tears come to my eyes and someone was there to witness it, that is nothing I should be sorry about. I want to start living unapologetically. I want to be myself through and through, without worrying about what people are thinking. I'm always so worried about being "too much" of something, but you know what? If I'm too loud or too bold or too honest for someone, that is not my fault.

Sorry, but I'm not sorry.